The word fearless has been roaming my mind for a couple weeks now. It’s a word that strikes me with awe and actual fear. To be fearless, to fear less, is such a rare thing to see in people and is not common among the world.
The way this word came around was when I was talking to a friend who shared that he was called to countries where there were little, to no Christians. I’ve got another friend who has the same calling on her heart. The more I let their calling sink in, the more I tried to picture myself in their shoes. To live in a country where I would be one of a handful of Christians was an overwhelming thought.
And that’s when I realized, these friends of mine are so fearless. They don’t fear (or show the fear) the unknown of living without Christian friends. They don’t fear the unknown of how God will provide for them. They are fearlessly in pursuit of their calling and passions, not letting the unknowns stop them from following the Lord in all that he leads them through.
And as I thought through this, I wondered what was holding me back. Why was I letting unknowns and fears stop me from pursuing my dreams and passions in that same way. Maybe I’m not heading to Morocco to witness to Muslims, but what about the other big dreams that I have that I haven’t stepped into fearlessly? Why was I limiting myself to the comfortable when I could have the crazy yet courageous life of freedom and less fear?
On the other hand, I am living a bit of a crazy, fearless life. I’m living with a family I met for one week. I’ve uprooted my life again, moved away from family and friends and into a state I never dreamed of moving to. I’m also fearlessly cooking. (Maybe frantically and panicking while cooking.) On a stove. (Barely) With food I don’t know how to prepare. (I mean, who doesn’t know how to boil an egg? *raising my hand* That would be me, I don’t know how to do that. But I learned via cookbook!) I’m fearlessly learning how to help a child do homework and then guessing which folder in the binder the paper goes in.
I’m slowly seeing that sometimes, living more fearlessly is to take small steps. It doesn’t have to be a big calling to head overseas and live among tribes who live in the stone age. It doesn’t have to be living in a country that will kill anyone who claims to follow the Lord Jesus Christ. Sometimes fearless means turning to a stranger in church and introducing yourself. It’s going outside the normal and comfortable and finding your passion and purpose in a new, exciting, less fearful way.
And honestly, there will be fears. There will be worry. But we can still go into something, despite how the enemy or our feelings get in the way. We can walk to our neighbors and share the gospel, we can love that cashier we’d rather avoid, we can move away from home to pursue Christ and his kingdom in small or big ways. And we can move to countries that need Christ as much as America.
And the great thing is, being fearless doesn’t mean that one has to change their lives in a radical way. I can look at my friends with this crazy, awesome, fearless, calling to other countries and then turn and look at my life and say “Wow Heidi, you are living your life in such a comfortable way. Look at the big, soft bed you sleep on, and the electricity. Look at the cute car you drive and the adorable boots you can wear. You need to get a bigger dream. You need to stop spoiling yourself and start living more uncomfortable.” I’m not saying that we should do that. Maybe I’m wrong, but I don’t think that being comfortable is wrong. God has blessed his children and we need to be content in those blessings, but to enjoy them.
My point is that I personally want to live a life that is comfortable in the fear that life can throw at me. I want to be fearless in the uncomfortable. And I’m still working through that. At church on Sunday the greeter said to find someone who was new and introduce themselves. Guess who was new and got a lot of greeting?? And guess who didn’t go up and introduce themselves?? That’s right, me and me. I don’t like introducing myself to people. I don’t like making new friends. I don’t like meeting new people when I don’t have anyone to hid behind. But I know that it is something I want to be fearless in. Maybe not right away will I overcome it. But eventually, I want to look back and be able to say, “Wow Heidi, you were fearless in that situation and look how far you’ve come since then! You’ve learned so much and God has blessed you through it, and you can enjoy that comfort. You can be thankful for that.”
Being bold, courageous and fearlessly is hard. But in the end, looking back at all that you accomplished and all that you worked through, walked through and overcame, that will be when you see it was worth it. Whether it’s smiling at a stranger or smuggling bibles into countries. Being fearless through Christ will always be worth it.
“Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire.” – Unknown
“She is fearless because He is faithful.” – ktscanuases
“The fears we don’t face become our limits.” – Robin Sharma
“Be truthful, gentle, and fearless.” – Gandhi
“Once you become fearless life becomes limitless.” – Unknown
“Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come.” – Proverbs 31:25